Men Blur

There were ice chests to lift and muscles to grapple with.

Cliffs as well.  Men stream, muscles and haloes,

and blur.  Horseshoes and triceps.  Muscles that knot.

In August, the white ball above, a furious blot plot 

high, will shimmer enough as to cause 

the emerald to soon lose half its volume.  

On boats tethered together like dogs out for a stroll, 

men blur.  Boats stall.  Gyrations, hollering, inebriations. 

Locking mouths together as underfed fish to hooks,

lips find nooks in muscle that has turned colors

like leaves disintegrating into stubble.  Men blur.  On this 

choppy sheet of green, men float and blur.

That emerald:  misshapen, murky thing, 

an irregular watery gem whose cut 

none other may mimic, illuminates my trek, 

then, from the cover of thistle, where after giving time 

with J., we are cuffed and dragged off by police.  

Indecencies and an aching overtakes my foot.  

It all blurs:  house, job, colleagues.

Only the jag of limestone knows this aching part of the foot.

The Pit Bull and the Fingerprint

Clambering among the freeways, 

I am barefoot and without my ride.  

Asphalt on either side of me,  

The awful parting that has occurred 

on the inside of my mouth has

Morphed—unglazed, summoning 

an explication, summoning a fat tongue 

or a prick:  

I have something here.

Pillars and pilgrimages to the grey colossus

bridging the body and wind

and back to the ferris wheel pier where 

that box of bones blew away so many Mays ago,

suddenly, sullenly, these fixtures 

have become more fitting, more tactile, 

more unguent than leaving behind these lofty things, 

things like horizons 

that spill sunlight into the gossamer foams of the Gulf 

whilst monstrous pit bulls lead pelons and part the orangest 

depths of Port Street.  Rhomboid muscles and thick wings 

bulge into daft clouds like those of buffaloes and hellhounds, 

and their Dickies-clad owners nod chins, wipe sweat

with creased white toallas.  Supple fingers invitingly caress

scalps and scapulars, and a pelon smirks with the whole

half of his mouth:  Demon, Clown, Creeper, Sleepy, 

Big Smokey, Mosco, Casper.

I have something here.

And I’ve tucked it like a coin just beneath the sternum,

just between the lungs and my loins.

And I am bound to run the gamut of disease,

unthinking my faults, my foes, my feet.

And I’ve found that smallest chamber of laying back

on the bare colchon of my homeboy’s canton to an open

throat and good brains, and this is the coin that can run me

and ruin me and return me to good times.

And with this new knowledge, I am bound to hone 

the huge bone of a Clown’s fingerprint 

smudged on the dashboard of my Silverado, 

fixed like teeth marks onto the silvery torso 

of my Art Laboe collection and my Guadalupe

clamped about my throat.

I have something.  

It is the foil crushed inconspicuously into a sofa cushion, 

a real crystalline skyline, a night without ice:  

I have something.

This belongs to us, I once was told of a house,

A barrio, a room that did not proffer much else but 

a deep throat, thoughts of the past,

and the promise of a Payasito’s penance.  

Pit Bulls

The tall fence does not exist

when I vault over it, Dollar Store laundry basket in tow, 

and land, undetected, in Nike chanclas,

basketball shorts, and a mushroom head of dust 

(at 6:38 a.m. on a Saturday in May 2008; 

the sun, giant orb, already 

blaring on top of this raggedy backyard 

on the near Westside of town, jeopardizing our intent).

And huffing (Fuckin hurry, Joe), while accounting for 

seven of what once had been nine pups, 

my lover hoisted the rickety black bed-liner of a truck, which 

had served as a purported shelter for the dogs 

(safely in our possession, we already had the mama pit; 

after a week of feeding her on the sly (cruelly, she’d been

tied to this fence, the chokehold of a rope tether cutting deeply

into her neck flesh;  hence, the seventeen unanswered calls to city

animal control, the emails shot to the news stations regarding

animal cruelty and neglect, the famous councilwoman’s

special request after viewing the skin and bones of cruelty 

revealed by the disturbing pics I forwarded), the owner had 

moved her tie, so that the dog couldn’t, even with the most 

formidable efforts of her neck muscle, reach the food and water

bowls we’d stashed for her in the overgrown alley

(GOD BLESS YOU, a handwritten sign left behind 

on a discarded food wrapper placed beside a mound 

of her vomit had read the day prior)

warily, the dog feasted on kibble and regurgitated 

a mush of what her twenty-two pound frame couldn’t manage,

and frequently, she peered upward, contemplating

perhaps the fates of her seven remaining babies 

not to mention the intents of these two bald, 

tattooed men who were either saving or pilfering 

her offspring while fending off, with daily advocacy

and early morning fence-jumping, 

her own imminent death by starvation), firmly

over my 5‘7” shoulders, so that I could pluck each

flea-infested pup, bellies rotund, and eyes squeezed shut, 

placing each tiny body in the tightened 

confines of this white, plastic receptacle 

functioning, now, with a bath towel, as a makeshift crib, 

the whole time thinking to myself:  Maybe they’re gonna wake up

suddenly and think I’m jacking their

fifty-bucks-a-pop-in-the-WalMart-parking-lot

commodities (the rest of us know as pups) and 

shoot my ass dead.  How would KSAT 12 report

that shit?  Fuck.  Almost missed one.  There in the corner

by that old-ass, upturned sofa, and throughout the day,

I keep creeping back, peering apprehensively through slats in

the wood of our fence to see if I could locate 

the two pups we’d counted previously, 

which now were vanished.  Later, we decided

to call this brave one Monster due to his gargantuan size 

and this white-headed one Ling-Ling,

because of her Mestiza eyes, 

this one Lil Sid with his pronounced dome head and 

then Sweet P. and Rat, Big Cooter, and finally, Krunk Lil Evaine.  

The mama bully we named Kimora, and one night,

while my lover slept, she crept her slight frame up onto 

the hueco of our bed, nuzzled up child-like 

between his chest and mine and sighed (a hard-ass, hard-life sigh);

I knew then we’d keep her as our own.  

Clorox

In the long lineage of ribs, 

boneless ribs, containing cotton 

but no cartilage, 

to which connects no sternum, 

no clavicle, no ligament of heart

or lung, then, this pair of Chucks, folded over

and accompanied by tallboy calsitenes, 

chones, a wifebeater loaned or left behind, 

don’t matter when observing one’s tio shine 

and his homeboy shine

and that fine-ass vato in the blue Cutty at the car wash shine

and your jefa’s old school dude shine 

and your homegirl’s brother Guicho shine 

so firme, so fine--

one’s homeboy crease down so fine. Then, 

this pair of tongues that whisper, 

“This way.  Asinita, bro.”  

Hanging Bed Sheets

That man you’re fighting with, 

He called tonight

While you’re tugging shoestrings 

off the skinny clotheslines of a trailer park childhood 

and peculiarity bloats the ombligo of sky,

beneath the cackle of splintery electric poles and

tweaked-out Clowns swapping bumps, beneath stars

that droop like bolts of sweat, 

you’re pinching salt near eyelids and

sponging boot prints off your cheek, and 

haphazardly, the man inside me is wiping 

scuff marks from floorboards 

where the dancing occurred.  

In thunderstorms and nightmares, 

My abuelo used to strip our beds and 

hang the bed sheets, stained and

fending off impotency, over all the mirrors of the house.

Other nights, he’d clamber up the roof and piss a

golden pain as we’d all switch off turns attempting 

to coax him back to bed.  And that’s how I learned

to hang bed sheets in front of mirrors.  

That man you’re fighting with,

He called tonight.

Sleepy and the Rock, 1993

a memory I lost but now have found

“See this rock.”  Perched between stout fingers, 

a homeboy shows off the rock, and I check the shit out 

like it’s fucking magic what he holds in the

sandpaper that is a hand.

“This rock ain’t shit,” he goes.  

“Til I put my arm behind it, guey.  

And then, shit, watcha.  

Watch what this little bitch can do.”

Intrigue flutters.  Wild, gilded eyes.  

I’m doubled over.  A day before Valentine's.

Torpedoing and a soft whistle 

across overgrown yard and a gate that won’t shut, 

shattering a toothless window to an old house 

that’s empty now except for the imprints of tecatos 

who shoot endless brown there and 

fuck and nod off and stave off life.

Now, I’m watching that rock.  

Seeing it spin.  Watchando.  

Huffing, still.  

Sleepy grabbing on me and dissolving.

Seeing it bring shit down, he goes,

“Life fucks up fast, manito.”  

I ain’t huffing no more.  

The sting that overwhelmed my lungs dissipates.  

I’m following a homeboy who has sped ahead 

of me on a rigged-up ten-speed, a homeboy who

swallows from a tallboy Schaefer as he pedals

and will put a mouth on me in the dreams that keep

me company when everyone else has failed.

The sun is hot like fuck.

The eyes of la vecina fisgona swarm around me, and 

the trains howl like dogs.

My breathing gaffs.  Desire stifles amongst so many 

locusts and then rises up again like perhaps maybe

when Sleep invites me to kick back at his pad, 

this shit might really happen, 

all the cards fall into place finally.

But they don’t.  

And instead, I’m here chasing, smashing

open another beer I don’t want,

always chasing the shit that I can never get.